we. belong. together. lopsided splintering bone twisting twine into the center wrinkles time and your face you’ve done more than just age circle scar on my arm match oval ink for faded friend a wrist you can’t unlock scrapes with keys but never knocks live in a body, not yours choose a name, and never grow up I’ll mouth the words on your lips “I hope this is all you get” cry for cysts that don’t exist mark a man and start a martyr just say again that you’ve changed shed a skin again, baby (never gonna get out of this one you’re the cure and cause to all my problems) your split tongue fits between my split lip perfectly oh we belong together

twenty five eyes over bridges, underwhelmed huddled in a mass in a passenger seat looking through looking glass there only old sights crying new tears reflecting things that aren’t true tricking the difference in distance in lights with a chemical, kicked in skull but it’s effects are just facts I am just freezing in a car floating through a beauty I can not care for I recognize it, but it has no impact this isn’t like the last time where we clung to the gum trees sucked in by the thick & syrupy maple leaves seeing how the sun makes the earth bend with a new glimmer in blades of light make the world bleed a different way and even when it set we still saw the brightest in silhouettes but this time I leave to crawl under my bed I can’t rest in a restless place wrapped in warping world broken things sober me so many lines.. too many lines.. there are twelve on each side and I dwell on the center eye say the phrase until they’ve left the head curse exhaustion for sunken bed pen the nonsense in frantic faded ink less like words they come up like drinks and it’s only been a week.. one goddamn week how am I suppose to last another? what about after that? old friends you can’t see the change of new ones you define come and save me I’ll thank you for knowing how wrong I can be offering no answers rhetoric in silence standing on the walls warming them orange distracts me soon, a laugh how quickly the mood can change a single tree ring for the time that has past laying petrified at our feet winding within words we learn so much more than we thought we could with interest we didn’t know we could muster in the musty night by circle stones I count of circle scars and think oval ink and broken pens lonely looks for lonely lune how quick the mood can change back.. the last time I was here (besides when I spilt all that water and seized the term “seizure” to excuse myself) it was a night of a similar chill & shade I saw clenched heads for death until the mourning irrational lashes knowing very well we could never understand now I am clenching my chest hoping for the same conclusion and for it to be genuine but it feels like an intruder in a house it was invited in to decaying land we built iron bridges the fire just licked it clean, shinier & stubborn a single band slid down my finger as I gently lay it across another as time finds me a binded wrist I still say again “I hope the next year isn’t as tiring as this” if I know I knew nothing then is it safe to assume I know nothing now then? I thought “I’m lost” while looking at the North Star

thirst is all our curse I’ve been giving you my money for some food to keep me fed well again now, I am starving do you think I could have it back? and I’ve been spending oh so many nights laying wasted in my bed well I’m still so tired, Lord do you think I could have them back? thirst is all our curse now you see we'll never be free to feel or think thirst is all our curse Oh, Eve, why’d you make me so thirsty? I’ve been giving you my hard earned for some dope to keep me smiling well ain’t high no more do you think I could have some more? and I’ve been giving you my heart thinking I would get yours back well my bloods starting to settle, love do you think I could have mine back? thirst is all our curse now you see we'll never be free to feel or think thirst is all our curse Oh, Eve, why’d you make me so thirsty? you’d drink more anyway because your time’s all like a cylinder you drink more everyday because you’re tired and you can’t get away you’d drink more anyway because your times all like a cylinder when you get up to piss why don’t you piss another drink? thirst is all our curse

come back cold the tongues a rope I spoke too beige thin words all braided around my wrist the guilt gripped the peg on my back when I was asleep and started to laugh Iris leaks my history blurs she crushed my hand mid-ouija trace I awoke and saw her face my hazel in all her white horrified by what she thought I’d write trust just makes it so much easier to lie life just makes it so much easier to die strain the screen of the room you said you wouldn’t be you’ll come back cold and steal my warmth dam the tears with the logs in our eyes there were no words there were only lines all my hazel in her white horrified by what she thought I’d write trust just makes it so much easier to lie the same way life just makes it so much easier to die

concrete reef bottles are clear glasses to see handles for grip I get more free & less neat fess up drain cups for there’s nothing you can’t do with wine and conceit.. mouth all the ice to slip of the tongue secrets aren’t secret when your brain is numb oh my God is that what it means? if I swallow the world will it revolve around me? I will not quit I won’t stop craving it I won’t I will not cease I will not cease ’til theres not blood in the sea that’s how we live out here on concrete reef I once knew a boy who looked for the shore he only looked to get the liquor store hows that? follow water to wine I skipped all the steps I learnt from the best! more comfortable in lies safer in other’s skin unhinge our minds our minds are unhinged that’s we live out here on concrete reef

you cut my hair, I shaved my head you’re far too close for comfort now yet far too far to do anything about it you cut my hair, so I shaved my head I will not lay to waste inside your images well you took my money took sweet relief took my body and my blood like a communion piece told me I was strong when I was getting weaker told me I was wrong when I had the answer so I kept my quiet that’s all I’d left but you sour silence spoke me bitter inside of it I was all alleged wrapped in fabrications without a word my name is stained from your becoming even when you’re gone you’re still here in the other room collecting all my fears tasting all my friends that you’d spit out ignoring all of my banishment counts then you held yourself hostage from me in a bloody dress you made me bandage your wounds with the scissor arm around my ear you ask “are you scared of me?” don’t you know? don’t you know of course I am singing ouroboros at the mint for many years, did we really kiss or was I just a tail? just a tale? singing ouroboros at the mint for many years, did we really kiss or was I just a tail? hell! I was living it but you’re far too close (the worst I've ever felt) for comfort now (was the way you wanted me) yet far too far to do anything about it (to feel, to feel, to feel) so you cut my hair? (the worst I’ve ever felt) so I shaved my head! (was the way you wanted me) I will not lay to waste in your false image (to feel, to feel, to feel)

a morning, a song today I swallowed my fear on a blank piece of paper stayed up until the sun rose and believed cast no shadow today I woke up the birds robbed a robin of it’s first song and I know where all my friends are I know where all my friends are.. - today I reclaimed my land felt warm outside my window stood on top a tree stump felt safe out in the open today I finally thawed out the chill in my spine and I know where all my friends are yeah I know where all my friends are..

hercules we stand between two door shivering under the warm light in bleary eyed black & blue pick the other, I ask of you but what am I to do when a lie is warmer than the truth? though it may seem like more loneliness I promise the other holds a lioness with thorns and scars up and down her legs in a mirror shape to draw you in but what am I to do when a lie is warmer than the truth? if you walk on through to see if you can make it closer to the sun just know, the best it’s gonna be is never gonna be better than it was if you walked all the steps it took for me to get to stand here in front of you we would be somewhere else some place better some place new imminent dismission of a soul pushed too far out experience null and I am no Hercules and I can do no more you’ll flip through your notebook words too spread out to find another thought and you’ll read about her cello bow, fork tongue, twined around your spine you’ll know I’m right that you are no Hercules and her heads will grow you are no Hercules and you’ll always know if you walk on through to see if you can make it closer to the sun just know, the best it’s gonna be is never gonna be better than it was if you walked all the steps it took for me to get to stand in front of you we would be somewhere else some place better some place new you are no Hercules even with no sword you are no Hercules even if you get bored

jericho I should be looking down right now but I stare on into mirages there’s an ocean wave amongst the dunes when my eyes became dry ice the sun set six, the sun set six tonight blind faith, blind rage, are all so binding will you blow the ram’s horn tonight and break all that I have built? if I fell down would you stop walking around me? and just lay down and let an end remain an end? if I fell down would you stop walking around me? and just lay down and let a friend remain a friend? but the strongest steels are always tested the bravest blood is always spilt the safest place is always hunted what is it about walls that make you people want to break them? you’re the cultured diamond on the ring you’ve walked will you spare me if I give you a son? for I was an empty suit of armor and you need something now to keep you safe now I've fell down so would you stop walking around me? and just lay down and let an end remain an end? the strongest steels are always tested the bravest blood is always spilt the safest place is always hunted what is it about walls that make you people want to break them? I’ve been confusing angels for vultures I’ve been confusing halos for hollows the heats been seeping in my head for days for days the heats been seeping in my brain, my brain, my brain the heats getting to my brain, my heart, my head, my days

"this must be it" endless steps to horizon lines I reached the edge, but kept my stride and tried to stand on the point focus I lost it all and I almost didn’t notice but I had to let it steam.. I am a lipid lid.. no one thinks that I get angry! no one ever thinks of me.. when you look up you can’t look down to see you’re walking on unknown ground she talked me in, I talked her out she taught you sin & showed you how the apple taste so sweet you could have it all but I swear it just makes you hungry when you’ve never known you could starve but would you live a tiny life to die a tiny death? oh, would you make yourself so small you’d fit in anything at all? my skin was worn ’til it was thin then it was torn twice, and again can’t let you go inside the ruse so I spoke two doors for you to choose well it’s been so dark, the lies so light my heart is so heavy, you think me spitting spite I am no thorn stuck in her paw all you see is the base of a pawn I just forbade the fruit saw the hunger in your eyes oh I butchered my bed! shit this schism when I said “I don’t want you around here no more!” would you live a tiny life to die a tiny death? oh, would you make yourself so small you’d fit in anything? love is so easy to fake when no one knows what the fuck it is again and again I’ll think “this must be it” and excuse all of your fucking shit love is so easy to fake because you don’t know what the fuck it is again, again, you think “this must be it” but there’s no way it’d start like this love is not a fucking choice but it can be a simple trick and I have promised that this is all it is so don’t you think “this must be it” love is not a fucking choice we’re far too young for it to have this much worth no matter how far I see through your eyes there's no way I’ll ever think your choice is right love is so easy to fake when none of us no what it is again, again I’ll think “this must be it” and excuse all of your fucking shit there’s no way that this is it there’s no way that this is it no way that this is it no way it’d start like this no way that this is it no way it’d start like this no way that this is it no way it’d start like this no way that this is it

a dream, I can’t recall fold the raven lungs up into swans to exhale the doves, still sung a sparrow song the head will spin, again and again all the way around and it thinks “I can see it all” wake up too slowly to remember what would make it make sense since I sit on it until it’s all too cryptic gradient white until not even the tar remains there was never any aviary there was never any sanctuary the birds were just blurs and were not how they seemed the notes that they’d sing would loop and resonate but were never actually heard all is all is a backdrop with a back that just drops rehearse the moments once again, and again die in all the dialogue still brushing the onion skin, again the eyes start to wade it begins, again my sweet green tracer my beloved, eraser spin my head around, again and again and I’ll think “I can see it all” we only exist after the facts a dream, I can’t recall you only exist where I’ve been a dream, I can’t recall